It's been only only a month since my last post but as I was writing I swore it was longer.
Life has just been too darn hectic.
To boot I've had my grumpy pants on while I'm dealing with all of it and I'll readily admit that. I've been letting the stress take over me to the point that I feel completely overwhelmed and lost.
But I woke up this morning and decided I need to change my outlook.
Instead of resisting and letting the hectic-ness of life get to me, I need to just embrace the chaos. It's completely out of my control what walks through my door each day.
I decided I'm going to literally start living the serenity prayer today and every day going forward. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference".
I'm going to control what I can, and just take deep breaths when dealing with what I can't. And I will ask for help when I need it. Now it being the end of the day, I can admit it's been one of the most hectic yet productive days I've had in awhile. Because I've accepted that I'm not in control at this point, and need to just let things happen as they may.
I am a woman, I am strong, and I can handle whatever life continues to throw at me.
But a dirty martini at the end of the day never hurt me either.